the magic doesn’t come from within, it passes through us. through luck, education, insight, grace, one perhaps has the power – too strong a word. occasionally one has the insight & awareness to observe and learn from it, and use that as a form of empathy. or perhaps even manipulate it gently, with great respect and discipline.
i have a headache. it’s been with me all day. off and on.
i was on a journey home after being away for a few days, in the mountains. (these mountains were unfamiliar to me though) the journey there was longer than the return, so when i arrived i was slightly frazzled. this feeling didn’t shake off until the second day. we went off-roading, up high towards the sky, through pine forest, semi-arid desert, mountain scrub. to the top: a rock, by way of snaking dirt roads of varying complexities. we’d stop occasionally to get out of the SUV to inspect the road ahead: could we make it? what’s the best angle? remember to not stop!
when off-roading, it’s easy for me to focus more on the task at hand – not crashing, rolling over, breaking the car, etc. – than what is around me. thankfully, the mountains knew i was there. the high winds flew over, around, and through me. the plants shared their serenity, their optimistic outlook. the rocks, their histories, pragmatism, grounding. the uninterrupted sun: disinfecting. while it would perhaps have been more meaningful or special, i did not need to know that the mountain was cleansing and nourishing me so. it gives so much: a playground for us to go vroom-vroom1, and spiritual development. to me, these two go hand in hand.
when i returned home i felt high. this is a loaded word for me nowadays. i’m not supposed to feel that way. but i did. it took me the better part of the evening to realize why. why i felt so calm, free, light.
when i was first taught about forest bathing i liked the simplicity of it, how passive it was (while recognizing the power of the place one finds themselves). i appreciate that the intention is to have no intention. to just listen, receive, share, acknowledge, appreciate, feel. the effortless nature of it is liberating.
that evening, the fog rolled in. the sunny day moved on to the next part of the world to share its love, opportunity, challenges, victories (or failed attempts). the cool water vapor coating everything on the mountain: “it’s alright. i’m here.”
my body was vibrating, i didn’t realize how apart from nature i have been. this reminder was necessary. i could feel the woods, the lake, the trees calling to me. a bit like a horror movie, but for me it brought comfort.
it’s alright. i’m here.
1 i thought it best to include this bit: we were off-roading on designated OHV trails, respecting the land, picking up moop
today at 3:36 pm pacific time Jupiter moved into Pisces. i’m told this is a good thing.
themes:
right around 3:36 pm pacific time i started to feel spent. stretched. empty. am i just tired? was it a long morning? am i being annoyingly contrarian?
hype: it bothers me. i get it when it’s for something that’s actually proven quality or somehow provides an authentic/genuine improvement to one’s life. but that’s probably why i’m not an early adopter. i do feel, though, that i’m perhaps early majority because new definitely excites me and i’ve purchased some wackadoo shit in my time.
maybe i have FOMO on all the folks high-fiving about all this Jupiter business. living their best in-Pisces lives. i’m just not feeling super plugged in at the moment. i’m really the only one that can address that but it’s easier to just think someone else will hand “psychic and intuitive development” over to me on a silver platter. that’s really what i want. if we’re honest.
but, brass tacks: if i want to nurture any such abilities, or increase my collective compassion & empathy, i have to look within. which also means i have to be alright with what’s going on in this moment. i have to be able to be grounded, self-aware, centered, at peace in order to be able to feel the outside vibes more intensley.
i have to be alright with the now. i have to be alright with who i am now. i have to be alright with where i am now. i have to understand that now is the destination of the past, and the starting point of the future. and out of those things, now is the only one i can control (even that is arguable… but let’s not, ok?).
first post: done. hopefully it’s alright.
