clean up

Not going back.

Not moving forward. Frozen.

Hopelessly. Once
upon a time, Nine had a steady guest list.

Now it’s just a Chrysler Sebring and the
occasional explorer.

three hundred seventy four

the third time
	rinse and repeat
a lifetime for a year
a lifetime for labor
			from labor
a lifetime for now
	at which point
do the scales
tip your server
do the scales tip
to a
		lifetime in the other direction
		
three hundred
at least have heard me shout
		from in side the box (a lifetime of labor)

maybe this time i'll
make it to 74

“The Avowal” by Denise Levertov

For Carolyn Kizer and John Woodbridge,
Recalling Our Celebration
of George Herbert’s Birthday, 1983
As swimmers dare
to lie face to the sky
and water bears them,
as hawks rest upon air
and air sustains them,
so would I learn to attain
freefall, and float
into Creator Spirit’s deep embrace,
knowing no effort earns
that all-surrounding grace.