three hundred seventy four

the third time
	rinse and repeat
a lifetime for a year
a lifetime for labor
			from labor
a lifetime for now
	at which point
do the scales
tip your server
do the scales tip
to a
		lifetime in the other direction
		
three hundred
at least have heard me shout
		from in side the box (a lifetime of labor)

maybe this time i'll
make it to 74

“The Avowal” by Denise Levertov

For Carolyn Kizer and John Woodbridge,
Recalling Our Celebration
of George Herbert’s Birthday, 1983
As swimmers dare
to lie face to the sky
and water bears them,
as hawks rest upon air
and air sustains them,
so would I learn to attain
freefall, and float
into Creator Spirit’s deep embrace,
knowing no effort earns
that all-surrounding grace.

we’re expecting

this post was written a while back. somehow i forgot about it. maybe now was a better time to post it.


i went on a walk today with a friend. i traveled, not far, to a whole other world: different weather, different people, different things to look at take photos of, a different rose garden. it was delightful.

On our walk the topic of living in the present came up (as it often does for me). one thing that stood out from this particular variation on the same conversation I’ve been having for ~147 days was the idea that when we aren’t able to “live in the present” we close ourselves off to the outside opportunities that our living present is manufacturing in real-time. we are more focused on an intended (or expected) outcome that we then close ourselves off to all other options. sure, that preconceived outcome may suit our needs at that time. but is it the best one? or is it the easiest one? the other outcomes may involve adversity, or humility, or work, but ultimately my experience my friends and my experiences have been that going with the flow tends to produce a better end product. whatever it ends up being, we won’t be happy with it because we were so focused on it, so sure of what it would be, before it even happened.

it’s generally best to set realistic expectations. not necessarily low. just realistic.

bonus round: don’t set any expectations at all

i have a love/hate relationship with poorly executed inspirational messages
disguised as memes.